Tagged life

I’m Moving Again

“Let your heart be silently drawn to the pull of what you really love.” I love that quote. I went on a whim to work at a camp this summer. Its in Maine. I have been up here for nearly nine weeks. A lot of seemingly small surprises found me here: I got to know so…

The Spiders Aren’t Here Anymore

I was in the shower. It was moving. Well, I thought it was moving. It was just a black speck on the shower curtain. The thing about your life story is its never just your story. I sincerely hate that part. The other players in the story may not want anyone else to know but…

Running Again

I started running again. My legs have been injured for nearly a year. I can neither turn them in nor out. They can stay parallel pain free. If I cannot dance like dance dance (umm I dance), I will run. I can no longer wait for them to heal. My body must move. I normally…

DNA Testing

“Don’t do it, it takes your DNA. Who knows what they do with it. It could be used for eugenic’s research,” she said as we walked towards Target. “Yeah but I don’t know who my biological mom is and thats the only way I can possibly find her.” It came in the mail yesterday. The tube that you spit in so the lab people can send me back information on my ancestors. A recent joke I used was, “I can’t date a white man until I know for sure we aren’t related.” There are men out there who have donated…

Memory

“I don’t want to let the memories go.” “But you were never made to live in a memory.”

Social Media Scroll

April 1, 2019 I scroll on social media when I am bored. Lately, this is often. There is a longing under there. If the scroll isn’t enough, I download a dating app. I peruse through it for a few days. I like to swipe more than I like to chat with anyone. I talk to…

#Me Too Moments

He grabbed her. They were at the Mcdonald’s playground. She came up to the table. “I have something important to tell you.” “Wait a second until we are done talking.” Miranda continued her animated story.  Three minutes later, “Okay what is it?” “A boy grabbed me on the slide (she pointed at her tiny breast) and ran away!” “Where is he?” I demanded. She looked around.  She pointed to an empty table. “He’s gone.”  “Why didn’t you say something sooner?” I asked “You told me to wait.” She was right. “Interrupt next time, please interrupt.  This was a different important.…

Hurt People Hurt People

I wish there was somewhere you could go that would make you want to thrive. There was a quote I read once, “There is a world within us all.” That world was created when you were a child. There were many factors that grew your inner-world.  Your parents, your friends, your school, your teachers, your trauma, your genetic make-up. Some inner-worlds are seas of defense mechanisms.  Those defense mechanisms cause havoc. It takes so much strength to see yourself clearly. It takes so much especially if you were formed by toxic moments.  Maybe you had the best childhood but a…

SIGNS

I went to NYC for a few days. I had a free plane ticket. I had free classes and I had a wonderful friend let me stay at her place. People look for signs. The only sign you see is the one you want and that sign is largely shaped by your own mental process. If you see someone that you desire romantically, you look for the signs. If you want to become a doctor, you will see the signs that suggest you should indeed become one. If you want someone to be terrible, you will see the signs. My…