From Poetry

I Date Fear

I can’t live for him anymore.  I am exhausted. When I get to the end of this journey, It will all have been about him. His constant rumination his smell on my skin. I live for him I forget about me. I’d die for him I don’t want that. Devious plots he parted ways down the street, Long enough to let me know I am not loved. Ambiguous intentions here and then not. Attracted to a familiar fear, Attractive fear, Attracted to fear. I date fear. I live with him. He gives me mixed signals. I enjoy the abuse. He is…

I Miss You

I miss you is the name of the emotion I feel If I may move you further I’d like to incline your ear The crystal took your hand as your eyes widened in the caves  I’m not afraid I am not afraid Lovers in the sky, they ignited your imaginative side Sunsets you loved more than any sunrise Hawaii was your hope Mermaids were your will Take me to the sea I want to disintegrate inside the wave Missing is soon over I remember more each day Pale pink cups Greens and Maroon A long walk Picked flowers Stars hello…

Hope Handler

Take me far from this Rain clinked the roof Cotton fields Cotton fields Cotton fields No one came I loved the one I waited for by the window I told him the whole truth He wasn’t real! You aren’t real!! You aren’t real! You never came!! You aren’t here!!! Where are you?!? I looked in my journal I had dreams They told me we would be together You aren’t here Hope My heart hurts with hope Deferred hope makes the heart grow sick I don’t mean to need you But I want you I need to give to you I…

Wait for Me

I became yours when your eyes met mine I was yours all this time It wasn’t your face wasn’t your mind Spirit within you so much life So much longing so much soul I became yours where you wanna go Way up high Way down low Baby with you I’ll go I’ll go Sounds crazy but you’re the crave I crave All the other men I say go away Don’t, you, feel, the heat Watch it tie our waists together we won’t even know When the days upon us both mind blown Waitings worth it, wisdom teach Think its just…

Rock Stars Rise

Existing hurts Body pull me down Joy wheeled distress Arrested chested fueled anxiety Joy wheeled distress Learned helplessness Self-efficacy I risk to be, to be to be me He’s gonna love me teach me everything I didn’t know Listen and speak the words I always think He wont nod his head dismissively He feels where I’ve been He said we are flowers We pushed out of rocks We became bright Out flew the stars Here we are Here we are Rock stars rise rock stars, surprise surprise Rock stars rise rock stars, surprise surprise Rock stars rise Surprise

Prove me Wrong

I despise. You scan her I saw. I can’t make you see me, can’t make you want me, won’t take my clothes off to make you proud, won’t move my hips so you’ll whistle with crowds. Sorry not sorry, not sorry not sorry. My power is my words! My power is in my thoughts! My power is in the way you were welcome to lean lean lean lean lean lean on me! You’ll be a stupid OLD man WITH her ALL ALONE  A double-jointed situation Flexible Strength gone Secrets of the bedroom. Did you forget secrets were possible? No one…

First Love

First time, Bashful. My face red. She strikes me. Her features. Her fingers, stress dissolves  Meant to be.  No one need like her.  No one has to care.  For the first time.   I feel pride. This is how love feels. I attend to her. Hours have no meaning here.  Not with her. My first love. Infatuated, Smitten, Love. Connected,                     Give, Sacrifice, Valued Love. Worthy, The transformation She is Words. Her Words are Mine shaped from History and languages of old. I fell for Woman, her Words. Her words in…

I Fly No Wings

If you hurt my soul you gotta go Wounds from friends they sharpen me But your words they gave me strings Strings of thoughts erased my dreams Stringy thoughts that purpled me Told me not to walk away Fight fight fight Stay stay stay To leave is to run away Courage cloaked me in the silence of the wind Courage coated you called it sin You called you called it sin Birds of a feather flock together I left the V I dropped I swooned Beaten wings I clipped myself I injured me Tangled words make it on your own…

The Statue Man

Statue man You picked the cotton You picked the orange Hard and scarred Sad and scared Big Statue man. Black hair Rugged Strong No tears drop Red and yellow Red and yellow Tears touch not your cheeks Statue man. You survived it all Earthquakes, Fires, Tornados, Snow. Statue man met paper sand File and Chip File and Chip Pedestal you would not leave Paper sand sent away She wept for you She weeps she weeps. On pride you stand With cotton and orange In red. Always in red Dead for years Seated sit stand A Statue The Statue man She…

Poisoned Lips

  Your words are strong        They hit like a shot        I’ll take a drink                  I’ll stir it all up The poison that pours           So smooth from your lips          Only hurts if I feel it                         And I don’t though I sip