From Poetry

He Asked me out Again…

I see him. My chest hurts. Danger, body says danger. He smiles. He says my name. He asks for my number again. He does have guts I stick to my guns. I type on my computer. I barely look up as I tell him no. Its not that I’m interested. Its not that I’m not. Not sure if it is my gut. Not positive its not a false alarm. So I type. I continue to type. I type them all away. No, okay?  

Berry Tree Days

I thought of you yesterday. There were berries. Wild berries. I thought of us eating the berries and climbing the trees. I thought of us going through the woods. The way that we would fight over who would get to climb which tree. The way that I would miss you when we would fight. I…

Memory

“I don’t want to let the memories go.” “But you were never made to live in a memory.”

Forgiveness What?

Forgiveness. I bet they didn’t tell you it would take a million thoughts. You would have to grieve over and over. You would stare at walls with despair as your companion. They didn’t tell you that you would have to repeat to yourself over and over the humanity that makes people who they are. I bet they never told you how you would forget that you had decided to forgive. You still don’t call. You still stay far away. You still think about them the way you used too. You see them and think, “Oh its not so bad.” Then…

Record of Love

If love doesn’t keep a record of wrongs, does that mean I have to let go of the past and pretend it never happened? I think about a couple where one or both are caught in infidelity. If the couple decides to stay together and work it out then that means the work of healing…

Bitter Prison

She said, “Its an issue of identity.” I looked for it. I must not have one. Intangible objects I still wish to touch. Faceless but still here. Like the wind, as gravity. It was the way she hated me. It was jealousy. It was bitterness. Bitterness blocked me. Intangible prisons Faceless barriers Immaterial freedom They say is forgiveness Forgiveness is the way back home  

Are you Ready?

I wondered about you tonight You see the crickets were singing Lightening bugs gave a merry show An orchestra played Who knew how talented frogs could be You missed it I dont know maybe you dont exist I did dream of you I told you I wanted to go to grad school to be a…

Hot and Bothered

I’m hot and bothered. You have absolutely lost your mind. You’re the little mouse who scurries to traps. She trapped you. Ha! You trapped yourself! You opened the door and said, “Come in spawn of satan, why don’t you make yourself at home!!! I’m a lonely fool!!!” You feel it but you ignore your feelings! Dimwit! Listen up! I am so glad I don’t have the balls to talk with such arrogance! I name you Mr. Smug! Ball free and intelligent enough to have emotions makes me woman. Emotions are signals to guide you to truth! No one ever said…

Invite me to the wedding?

Dear Dear One, The smell of grass. It doesn’t remind me of you anymore. I noticed yesterday. The wind blew. Newly cut grass thrown in the breeze. I caught it. It struck me later in such a way that left me sad. The image of a man came to me. He stood under a fiery sun. He wore a straw hat. His skin was brown. His eyes bled with salt; it poured sweat. “Wanna go for a ride?” He had the warmest hand. His smile whisked worries away. His agility moved with unceasing grace. He climbed trees. Once upon a…

My Love

My Love, I’m so sorry for all of the days you will go unnoticed. I look at you and think about your beautiful little face and I wish you would never feel pain. I don’t want you to think you are unwanted or abandoned. I know you feel this. I see the torment beginning to mold your little malleable mind. The lies. Oh, the lies my love.  You are the most exquisite little lady I have ever known. The sunshine streams from those big brown eyes. You are the party! No one told you did they! You are the party!…