From My Daily

Sunday Night Summer Reflections

He said, “Part of the grace on your life is who you were not born as. No matter how bad it is, it could always be worse.” I watch people. I examine myself. How often does that haughtiness come out? You know the one. The one where you think to yourself, “I’d never do that.” Pride. I’ve seen many fall from the hands of pride including myself. I am capable of all things. I could have been him or her had I been born into their world. I’ll never know. You won’t either. I was at work Sunday night. I…

Baili

She has brown hair and the most infectious smile. Her energy never ends. Baili. Her love language (I encourage you to read 5 Love Languages) is quality time.  If she doesn’t get that quality time, her little heart breaks. She says, “I love you” when she gets played with.  Her eyes light up, her heart is full. She likes to say, “Honey, honey, are you listening to me?” We went to the Cliffs of the Neuse again today. I almost fell. She said, “I am careful Grace and you are not. I am careful but you are not careful.” I…

Peace in Grief

This trip across America, I’d put it in my top three best decision’s list if I had a list. My main prayer in the past year has been, “Lord help me with my faith. Give me faith again. Give me faith. Give me faith.” I am not sure if faith is exactly what I was looking for. Maybe it was more like peace or hope or trust that he was there. Lets be real, I wanted to be free from the pain. I had that gut-wrenching pain. That grief that physically makes you fall down. Its the one that pierces…

Solo Driving across America

(A picture of my first TOLL BOOTH!!! I was so excited to pay her hahaha!) We all have things we like to brag about. I like to brag about how everything I own in this world can fit into my car and still have room for two passengers! Its been interesting driving alone. I drove past Las Vegas and thought shouldn’t I want to stop here? I’m more concerned with getting away from the traffic. I asked myself, “What if one day I look back and regret all the places I didn’t stop at?” I thought about it for a…

Jesus Lives?

I was on my way to Bethel church. I was driving through a forest and around mountains in the pouring rain! Sure glad my dad told me how to tap breaks before I left. I am definitely a tapper! It was all good until the sign read, “Rock slide area.” “Well great, Grace drives across America to get run down by a boulder. The end!” If I had a quarter for all the angry people stuck in the line behind me as I did not drive over fifty around any curves! “Sorry buddy not from here besides read the sign!…

Eleven Hours

I have friends who are real travelers.  They look at everything.  They savor it.  They take it in.  They meet the people and eat the food.  Not me.  At least not this round.  I’m on a mission.  That mission is to drive! I stopped at the International House of Prayer in Missouri.  I like to think of church bodies as systems and parts of the body.  One church might be the nervous system.  IHOP is the heart.  They pump America in and out with prayer twenty-four hours a day.  I stayed for a few hours before I felt that pull…

Cross-Country

Its funny how things change.  He said, “You always wanted to be free.  You never did sign a lease.”  He was right.  Maybe I had wisdom too.  They always said, “She does what she wants.” I do, but I listen too.  I hear a voice that makes no sense. The silent whisper.  I listen to him again.  I start my drive to Los Angeles tomorrow. People don’t do things like that in small towns.  There is always a fear.  Always.  I can walk up to a big city coffee shop and talk to two, three, four women who have traveled…

Choices

I am figuring out what I want. The thing about this process is what if I don’t really want what I think I want. There was a boy I wanted once. I got him. He was nothing that I really wanted. I wanted to learn how to paint. A wonderful woman taught me how to paint a swing and a tree. I learned I didn’t want to learn how to paint. I appreciated it but had no interest in pursuing it with my time. There are many things I think I want that I don’t want. What if what I…

Universalist Veganist is ist…

It feels natural to eat less meat. California.  The spirit of Veganism is here.  You are looking at a part-time vegan. Me, That’s right, Friday through Wednesday no meat and stuff. Me: “Hey Sam, ever think about the pus that goes into your cheese? It’s like popping a zit and putting it on top of your food!” Sam: Yuck!! (Momentary silence) Sam: I’m making chicken for dinner!!!  Thursday.  On Thursday I am a carnivore.  A gross and greasy one. In-N- Out! I also don’t complain when I ask for no cheese on my bean burrito and the cook still puts cheese…

To Be Human Again.

I looked on a map today.  I looked at California, I looked at New York City and then I looked on down to North Carolina.  I had a moment of, “Oh that’s why you get the your crazy for moving on a whim slash you are so brave comments.” The other side of the country. I had planned to stay in California for two months.  I signed a lease last night. I washed the floors with a washcloth.  I bought beautiful plates but only four.  I put them on the counter because I was jealous of the cupboards. “Why do…