From My Daily

He Died…

Dear ones, We often color a person as all good or all bad when they die. To grieve well, we must see the lost person in all of their complexities. We must express every wish, all the conversations that were never had. At least that is what a book I read said… My brother is…

I’m Moving Again

“Let your heart be silently drawn to the pull of what you really love.” I love that quote. I went on a whim to work at a camp this summer. Its in Maine. I have been up here for nearly nine weeks. A lot of seemingly small surprises found me here: I got to know so…

Some Get Love

There was a boy who told me his story. He comes from that life we all hear about. His mom is sick, he wants to help, he wants to pursue himself. He doesn’t know which road to take. He asked me what the point in living is if he can’t chase his dreams. I had…

NYC Lady Bug

  A lady bug flew into my room. It was 2017 in NYC.  It was September. I had that broken heart and the lady bug didn’t belong there. The noises were loud. The smell of cement and rain filled the air. She was there though. She sat on my finger. She gave me hope. It…

Nose Cutters

One of my favorite things to do is watch people. I know how creepy that sounds but I am definitely not the only one. I like to listen, to watch, to learn. Right now I listen to the sounds of teenagers who talk about the face lifts they will get in a few years, the…

My Wedding Anniversary?

Yesterday I felt so sad but had no idea why. Now I know. The ocean. I went to her yesterday. It was largely an accident but somehow I ended up on a beach. The ocean was trying to tell me that my wedding anniversary would have happened the next day; today. She wanted me to think about…

Running Again

I started running again. My legs have been injured for nearly a year. I can neither turn them in nor out. They can stay parallel pain free. If I cannot dance like dance dance (umm I dance), I will run. I can no longer wait for them to heal. My body must move. I normally…

DNA Testing

“Don’t do it, it takes your DNA. Who knows what they do with it. It could be used for eugenic’s research,” she said as we walked towards Target. “Yeah but I don’t know who my biological mom is and thats the only way I can possibly find her.” It came in the mail yesterday. The tube that you spit in so the lab people can send me back information on my ancestors. A recent joke I used was, “I can’t date a white man until I know for sure we aren’t related.” There are men out there who have donated…

The Butterfly Wing

We stopped at Lowe’s to get some flower pots. “Look, a butterfly!” It was fluttering on the ground in the middle of the parking lot. “It has a broken wing.” We lingered for a moment. I could feel the we need to do something feeling rise up in my chest. My mom felt it too,…

Random Beach Trips

I love many things about my best friend Miranda but the top of the icing was when we were in her car on the way to the beach at 3:30 in the afternoon on Sunday afternoon. “I just checked the weather, there might be isolated thunderstorms but they might stop around seven if they do…